1. It helps to be a brat to get what you want.
2. Not smart to read old laptops while lying down.
3. Pride is not the answer.
4. Dreams have a price tag. Pay to achieve.
5. I am not as invincible or smart as I thought was at 22.
6. Being distracted is the key to a lasting career.
7. It’s ok to be relatively selfish.
8. Psychology has the answer for everything. Including happiness.
9. I am not my job.
10. Friends come and go.
Whenever this question pops up in conversations, what can you say?
How much can a person change (from not blogging properly) in say 2 years?
The short form? Nothing much.
And that’s a pretty good reason to start writing again.
It’s pretty nifty to have access anywhere. I’ve never imagined I could write while say, having a haircut.
Onto other sorrows. *Hah* What do you do when your expectations have been violated? I’m referring to relationships (pseudo or the real thing).
*Sigh* Should get back to lunch. Just a little something something to think about.
Recent distraction is a wedding website project. Will get into that before I wallow again. Note to self: stay away from LinkedIn because it is the source of compare and contrast lives leading to another downeard spiral. Visit with caution and bravado.
Yes I’ve been listening to Amy’s raspy rendition of Back to Black all week after her death. Sort of a mini tribute. Yes I’m back to publicly declaring my moodiness. Yes, my blogging sabbatical is over. I like these do-overs. Better than real life. Lol.
Anyway been doing a late mid-year books to finish review. I haven’t been finishing the brainy books I should be finishing. Why is that? I’ve been priding myself over being a Sadge and yet me and philosophy don’t mix. At all.
Laughing too at the number of books spread on my bed. I sleep with more books than men. It’s funny when you’re 22 but sad at 26 lol.
May
Freaked out majorly on not having enough to make it freelancing. So I applied for corporate. Got accepted. But here’s a little secret, I still feel like another corporate drone. I don’t know why it sucks the life force out of me. And I feel bad for not being able to do other things than my work. My good friend always tells me that I should go beyond my job. It will be my minor project for 2011.
June – Started on the corporate drone thing. It is a major whirlwind.
July – Began to write in a private journal. That’s where some of my thoughts are stored. Missed writing a lot.
August – Freelanced again for one of my friends. Light month.
September-October was pretty monotonous.
November was a dream. Went to HK and SG. Still dizzy over that.
December
Hell. It was a month of ugliness at work. In hindsight I was able to handle a lot of projects. But this made me think that haste ultimately makes waste.
That’s it. I have to edit this and make it all frilly and fun. Just feel a bit dark now.
One of the best perks of going freelance is controlling your own time. I’ve just arrived from a weekend camping trip in Camarines Norte. While everyone in the trip is clamoring, oohing and aahing over it on FaceBook, I choose to quietly share with you the trip here.
Anyway, we came to a beautiful island called Calaguas. It’s a two-hour trip away from Daet. And the trip was so worth it. Photo is from Melanie Villaluz Diaz 
Image by Melanie Villaluz Diaz
I have a week left from vacationing. I am now into all the scrubs, facial masks that I can find. Just today I found time to put on nail freaking polish (the kind that Giada de Laurentiis of Everyday Italian uses). It’s fun to take care of oneself. The self I once forgot about.
Onto this shiny and new thing, I wonder where I can find good books on Buddhism…
Can you be funny and depressed at the same time? I can.
I learned that I cannot plan my future and so I am waiting to for the job to land me, or vice-versa. I had an interesting talk with a COO for a brand activation agency based in Singapore and he told me…if you can’t land the job title that you want, turn it into a business.
Hmm. And that is the sound of my brain whirring.
Tags: Career
What has been on your reading list lately? I’ve juggled DVD marathons with my (unfinished) books over the long holiday.
Unfinished books
1. Linchpin by Seth Godin
2. Brand Child by Martin Lindstrom (I don’t know why I can’t finish this book)
3. Kant and the Platypus by Umberto Eco
4. What the Dog Saw by Malcolm Gladwell
Untouched movies
1. Vampire Assistant
2. Tooth Fairy
3. Invention of Lying
4. Time Traveller’s Wife
5. Star Trek
Let’s just say I’ve hoarded enough DVDs to last me till the end of April. It feels good to have my fingers tapping on my laptop keyboard again and this time it’s not work-related but merely for my blogging pleasure.
The astrologers warned us–from Lilian Too to Susan Miller–that 2009 will be full of difficulty but most people will survive. I know we have. We’ve gone through 2 postponements and 1 less-than-perfect event. The best came out of all of us during this trying time. During life’s little tragedies in the office, we learned to choose our battles and built our trust for each other from there. Washing the laundry has never been this fun especially when it means merely dining out and airing one’s praises (or grievances) for the handlers of the activity.
When I look at my face in the mirror I feel that I have aged. I look order because the problems thrust onto my lap are not for someone like me. I used to think that life was simple, that being an office worker meant going home at 6PM on the dot. Now I know going home on time is reserved for a different department.
I felt like 2009 has alienated some people in my life including my personal life because work had definitely taken over. But am I ever glad to find friends in my co-workers. They have been my source of strength. Especially the more senior ones whom I find it easy to relate with (surprisingly).
Hmm. Still feeling nostalgic. I think it’s the Cherry Blossom thing that I find myself bathing in everyday. More drama later
I declare that today I will be happy and free because I deserve it.
Today I will let go all of the people and systems that continue to oppress.
